About 2 months ago, I lost the girl that I thought I would marry. She was everything that I ever wanted in a girl. We dated for 10 months and were absolute best friends for 3 months before she decided she wanted to date me. After 3 months she told me that she loved me, and after 6 months, she told me she was in love with me. We very rarely fought, but when we did, we were very quick to diffuse it and move on. We chose not to have sex from the very beginning and made promises to each other. Close to the end, I began to take her for granted. She would ask me to just be with her and watch a movie or something and I simply told myself that I didn't need to, she won't leave me. Well that came back to bite me. We broke up a month and a half later.
It destroyed me. She told me that she just wasn't attracted to me anymore, and very quickly found a new guy to replace me. I can't say if it was purely for comfort, or if she was truly happy. They moved very quickly in their relationship to the point of having sex. She got back into drinking and let God fall out of her life. It was hard and still is hard to accept that she has already chosen to move on, but what hurts most is that she is making decisions she promised me she would never make again. God helped me pull her out of a hole in her life before, and she is falling back into that hole again.
It is true that you never realize what you have until its gone.
I'm starting this blog because as I was thinking today, God sent me a sign. I was on stumbleupon of all places and I clicked stumble. There in big bold letters on the next page it said "LET GO AND LET GOD." Well I knew I needed to do this a long time before, but I asked God to give me a sign and here it was. So to help cope with the pain my heart feels right now, I want to make this blog to maybe give anyone else hope as they need it.
I am making this blog to accomplish 3 things:
1) I need it for myself to express my feelings and get them off my mind
2) I am a bit of a relationship expert and have helped many of my friends with their ex's so I want to impart some knowledge
3) To give others hope for the future and let them see the power of God
God Bless,
Chris
God grant me patience and strength to cope with the loss of the one I loved and still love.
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