Day 1 Hope Through All Doubt

Have you ever felt like no matter how much you want something, it just feels so impossible to obtain? I know you have. Everyone does. Even with some of the smallest and easiest tasks in the world, our mind has a way of putting doubt in our decisions. Doubt is one of the biggest obstacles when trying to reach a dream. It puts fears in our mind such as "what if I fail?" "what if it just doesn't work?" "what if she never comes back?" and we have no way of fighting them. They eat away at our minds every time we feel good about a situation. Personally, I attribute doubt to the works of the devil. He is the one being that wants nothing more than to see us crash and burn. He is good at it.

How do we fight it? We use a thing called hope.
Hope is a belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life. Hope is the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best. -definition
Hope is the opposite of doubt. We use hope to cope with the doubt we may be feeling in our hearts. However, often times, that doubt envelopes our whole minds and lets no sign of hope shine through. This is a problem that all humans face. We have hope for a short time, and then the fear of what may happen starts taking over. In my opinion, for every pebble of hope, there is a boulder of doubt. For every good thought we have, there are a million bad thoughts that want to fight it. 


From the beginning, this has been my biggest problem. Everyday I wake up and tell myself that today will be better. Today I am going to be better. For about 20 minutes I let myself feel amazing, and then I let the doubt enter:

• will she ever want me again?
• will I ever be happy again?
• why did she move on so fast?
• does she really love this guy?
• does she still think about me?
• millions more...

Especially today, after making my final decision to let go, I have dwelled all day on the consequences that they may bring. I fear what may happen and I don't even let the hope show.

Let hope shine
Today I choose to let go of my doubt for a better future. I don't know if I will ever be back with this girl, but I will let my heart hold on to that hope. I choose to let go of the doubt that I have been holding on to and put my full hope and faith in the awesome power of my God. I do not know his plans, but I know he has one for me and my hope is that someday it will be with this girl and that I will get my best friend back.

Lord I pray today for hope. That you may grant me peace in a better future. I trust in your plan for me. I trust that you put this girl in my life for a reason. I do not know why yet, but I will when you want me to know. I pray that she will come back to me when the time is perfect.

Just to specify for all. It is not bad to ask for something or someone back. God will hear your prayer and He will answer it. Not always in the way we expected, but He will. I want more than anything to get this girl back, but i must accept that if it is not His will then He will show me.

Have hope
Chris